Things in real life always have this ability to try to throw you off course and this pandemic has had the chance to throw everyone off-kilter.
But the one thing that my younger brother and I were talking about this last Thanksgiving was how my artwork has been the one constant in my life. Even though all the ups and downs I have experienced over the years and the magnification of those up and downs during 2020 really brought everything into focus.
And yet for all of these tribulations, art remains.
With that, I forge ahead with work on Paker and it every growing closer to my goal of being done. The break that has been forced upon me due to the spike in cases across the globe, I am taking advantage of.
Currently, I am almost within single digits of being done with the book. This alone is a great time and challenge for me to finish it all. After nearly 6-7 years that I have been working on this stuff, I see an end to my project.
And that is a little scary.
Like most artists I know personally, when you start to see light at the end of the tunnel you'll find some way of distracting yourself. The recognition of the struggle to get work off the ground is what you are looking for from people - not the finished product because if you did finish it, you would have to start the whole process over again and it might not be as good as the one just completed. It is some weird way I think that artists are saying to others “Hey, yeah I’m an artist, and sit and make “make-believe” come to life but I am still struggling just as much as you are.” Using justification to cover our insecurity. Man-up snowflakes.
Now that's just an observation of not just myself but other artists I have known over the years. For me now, I am experiencing that trepidation of finishing my book, and it is actually scarier now because a new phase will have to be added to the project of printing, distribution, and international publication. There are a lot of variables that need to be looked at.
BUT I need to finish the physical art first.
So that is where is am at. Back to finish a sea mine exploding and on the next image.
Scary stuff up ahead.